True friends will never part, maybe in distance but not in heart . . .

   Today was an over all amazing day, Once again God kindness has worked in my life. I consider my self to be a very weird person, im very emotional and sentimental but pass event have made me become harder and have that " i don't give a fuck attitude"  I rather walk away than be left, rather keep wondering than face some sort of rejection. Many people have fucked me over one way or another, so i stopped caring and trying to be nice and put my self out there. but these couple years i have matured a lot and realize what really is important in life.  And hated the person i was becoming... so cold,too hard, and bitter... i realized i was unpleasant... i almost lost my best qualities, compassion and kindness... i was becoming numb... frozen in time... i didn't wanna feel pain but in the process i lost all feelings. I remember thinking Ive lost my close friends.. that's not a good thing... so i man up. I wrote a special someone a msg after a year i have yet to hear from him bcuz he is in the military but i wish him well. I re connected with the only girl that i could ever trust and brought me closer to God. And today i got the courage to walk in to friend of 9 years work and apologize over a meaningless fight we had over a year ago... i ended up crying and  we hugged and made up... i feel so much better... being a good person and owning up is always the right thing to do. Anything that comes from Love is good because its a quality the lord has given us :) and i don't ever want to loose that..