Faithfuldame

Life is getting better... So many dreams and goals i wish to accomplish. I don't have anything to hold me back anymore. Im a little scared but i am very determined. I know the Navy is the best choice for me, it will take me out of my comfort zone and challenge me. Its going to be a lonely life and i prolly wont have a significant other, but i need to learn to be on my own and happy before i can even try to get into a relationship.I cant let what happen in my last relationship happen again. Putting my dreams to a stop for someone that drop me in a heartbeat. I resented him a lot and i became bitter. I suppose God has someone for me that will be patient and understanding toward me. All my life ive been overly protected and to an extend secluded from the world and lectured about culture. I want to live my life to the fullest.. i wanna explore the world and meet new people. And when the time is right id like to meet someone to be with, because in the end i would like to have my happy ...

                                                                     This i a topic i have been avoiding and in denial about.... LOVE..... Love is a quality given to us by our Lord, its beautiful... i want to keep loving ..id like to fight for love but its not always so easy ... Besides my family theirs a few people i love with all my heart.. some have been so loyal and trust worthy, that it still blows my mind to realize this person really exist .. others have come into my life as mentors and comfort me with kind words and they remind me of what i want out of life..and then their are others that are just make me laugh and its very easy to love them in...

                                                    Ive been awake since 6:30 and got out of bed at 7:00, i showered and catered to my pets :)  been kinda stressed, im always stressed thoe. I don't know if i want to fall down to my knees and cry or pray, maybe do both... part of me wants to punch a wall and kill the pain with pain and yet another part of me would like to just laugh about it because i don't know what else to do and they say laughter is the medicine to the soul. I don't want to become bitter.. Sometimes i don't know what else to believe in anymore or in who.. people always tend to let you down. I don't know what people want from me? i can never seem to make them happy .. i cant even make my own self happy... That'...