wishing...


Life is getting better... So many dreams and goals i wish to accomplish. I don't have anything to hold me back anymore. Im a little scared but i am very determined. I know the Navy is the best choice for me, it will take me out of my comfort zone and challenge me. Its going to be a lonely life and i prolly wont have a significant other, but i need to learn to be on my own and happy before i can even try to get into a relationship.I cant let what happen in my last relationship happen again. Putting my dreams to a stop for someone that drop me in a heartbeat. I resented him a lot and i became bitter. I suppose God has someone for me that will be patient and understanding toward me. All my life ive been overly protected and to an extend secluded from the world and lectured about culture. I want to live my life to the fullest.. i wanna explore the world and meet new people. And when the time is right id like to meet someone to be with, because in the end i would like to have my happy ending. Id like to marry an amazing man and have children :) just dreaming out laud ....

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