This is my journey ....

Its been a while since ive written and i tried to keep it constant .. but here I am once again. Ive been thinking a lot lately about who i am and what i want out of life, one thing is for sure i don't give a fuck what anyone's opinion or thoughts regarding my life are. Listen I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!!! Im not trying to impress anyone and unless u have been in my shoes or know exactly what my life has been like, i really don't want to hear it. At the same time i too realize that i need to stop asking people about my life when in reality deep down inside i truly know the answers. I hate it when people under estimate me... My family and some friends ... but u know they really don't matter. Even my family as much as i love them our values and morals are different and as much as over the years they have tried to mold me into their ways and have me conform to the Mexican culture. I will never change, Lord knows i cant change. I know what im capable of and i know what i want. FREEDOM..... I crave it and feel it in my veins... Ive had some restrictions and obstacles but now it seems like everything is coming together.. I can almost taste it and everything ive always wanted seems so close. Ive always felt like i lived a double life ... The person I am  and the person i have to be because of my parents and family restrictions. It will be nice to breath and finally be my self at all times.. Ive always been the black sheep in my family. I love rock N roll and go for most anything, i love taking risks and going on crazy adventures and just relaxing a sometimes. I used to be fearless  but some where along the lines i lost it.. but it still there. I know one way or another im going to make it to Finland. It seems so beautiful there :) and its a great place to start my adventures. I don't care if i have to go alone, i am going!!!  As for Love, What can i say?  that can wait. Sometimes i find my self bored and a tad bit lonely but i know that im not where i need to be right now so i cant be with anyone. Besides their is so much i want to do that a boyfriend would just be a distraction. I have faith that God  has a right man for me.

                                               

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  1. ViiviJuly 26, 2012 at 1:54 AM

    I know you said you don't give a fuck of my or anybody elses opinion but i'll still give a try. I hope you will find a way to be yourself with your family. Cause i'm sure they love you unconditionally.
    And what comes to love: Hang on there. You will meet the one if that's how it's meant to be. :)

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    1. FaithfuldameJuly 28, 2012 at 8:29 PM

      Thanks girl! i do care for great advice or encouragements. When i wrote this i was kinda frustrated. Thing is sometimes people tend to miss judge me bcuz i have certain restrictions and problems im dealing with. And i give my self i hard time about it too bcuz certain things i wish i could to but its not time yet. i have to respect my fam. But thank you!!! :)

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