Prayer
Lord please help me... I don't know my self well enough. I've been growing impatient. I get anxiety and scared... All I want is to feel free... I want to loose control and let the night take me...
True friends will never part, maybe in distance but not in heart . . .
Today was an over all amazing day, Once again God kindness has worked in my life. I consider my self to be a very weird person, im very emotional and sentimental but pass event have made me become harder and have that " i don't give a fuck attitude" I rather walk away than be left, rather keep wondering than face some sort of rejection. Many people have fucked me over one way or another, so i stopped caring and trying to be nice and put my self out there. but these couple years i have matured a lot and realize what really is important in life. And hated the person i was becoming... so cold,too hard, and bitter... i realized i was unpleasant... i almost lost my best qualities, compassion and kindness... i was becoming numb... frozen in time... i didn't wanna feel pain but in the process i lost all feelings. I remember thinking Ive lost my close friends.. that's not a good thing... so i man up. I wrote a special someone a msg after a year i have yet to hear fro...
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