Bring me back to life...

These past two months have been really hard for me.. My German Shepard died unexpectedly and my Cat got bitten by a brown recluse spider, i thought i almost lost him. He is going to be completely heal in 6 to 8  months..Having family problems never makes things easier.I have always believed in God but i never had a personal relationship with him and tried to get to know Him. Over a year ago, i hit rock bottom and i was so lost. I met Evon a older women, who became like my inspirational mentor. She has had a tough life as well and has made many mistakes.However she learned from them. The one thing i admire the most about Evon is that she doesn't just preach the word of God, she actually takes her own advice. You see her and you would never think she has such great bond with the lord. Although her life is not easy she has joy in her life, and that's what i am seeking.  Now i have found God but sometimes i find my self lost again. So i am meeting my dear friend tomorrow for yet again some more guidance. In the end everything is up to me and depends on how strong my faith is. I find my self very grateful at this moment that God put Evon in to my life. and although we don't see each other that often, the times we do see each other leaves a lasting impression