Finding my identity and seeking the ones i love ...

Today i met up with my dear friend Evon, and it was everything i expected and more. Our age difference makes not burden or difference, when we both love Christ. We were born in the same kingdom and we try to carry on our faith. We inspire each other and do not judge each other. Today i received yet another, out look on life. I have to keep strong and fight this depression. i cannot think of leaving earth when theirs a plan i must fulfill. I know its gonna be hard. Ive been very negative lately, thinking about the horrors of the world, and looking at my own life. Wishing that i could be 4 years old again and think was a fairy tale and everything was possible in life, I wish i was special... i wish i had a happy ending... But then i realized, i do have that. However my story is not done yet. My father is the King of kings and that makes me his princess :) and He loves me. Surely he has a bigger plan for me then i thought. I have to always remember that. Im breathing for a reason... One day i will have a happy ending and God will lead me to my prince charming... 

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