Waiting for my prince charming.....

Love can be so so beautiful and rewarding if done the right way. Sex is not love, you don't have to have sex with someone for them to love you and be committed to you. At the same time love can be so painful, giving your trust to someone is a hard thing to do. I am 21 years old and about two years ago i decided, i wanted to stop fucking around, and i don't mean that literally but emotionally. I wasted a lot of time on a x boyfriend that can never get back, and now that look back on it i should have seen the red flags. I myself wasn't a complete angel, i would provoke him numerous times. but i wasn't happy, now i know he was only an escape from my problems at home and obstacles.Regardless of the shitty codependent relationship i had conformed to, i still cared for him. That's why when i found out of his betrayal it hurt so bad, i felt like someone had just thrown a giant rock on my heart. I had hit rock bottom. But this wasn't me and deep down i knew he wasn't even worth it. i hated the person i had become when i was with him, i didn't know who i was. I collected my self and told my self i was strong and this wouldn't break me. i got closer to God and started to look at what i wanted out of life. Ive had guys try get my attention however i don't want to waste my time anymore. i only date people that i truly connect with. Because i cant change anyone, i live a abstinence life. I still believe in love, and i don't think what i had back then was even close to it. it was just convenience and company. I believe God has the right man for me, and he will respect me and love me unconditionally. While he comes into my life i have many other things to accomplish. 

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